Monday, January 23, 2012

Acceptance..


I’ve undertaken this marathon pursuit for a few reasons.  The easiest to understand I suppose is that I wanted a running related goal to shoot for so that I would be motivated to continue my running and to have it directed towards a particular purpose.  For me, guidance and direction are good things, most of the time.  There are also a number of secondary, or non-running related reasons for this undertaking.  If I’m going to devote 8 – 10 hours per week to something, I want to have some long lasting benefits that stick with me.  If you think about it, a marathon training program is similar to a college course in terms of commitment required.  I want to be be changed for the better when it’s over.  Sure, rock hard calfs, bulging quads, and a dirty laudry pile that deserves the attention of the Environmental Protection Agency are all nice things to have, but I’m always looking for personal development.  I hope to reap a number of self improving benefits from this program.  From time to time I’ll go off on a tangent about them in this space.  This is one of those times.

Acceptance is a trait that I could use a little help with.  I’m not a very religious person, but I used to spend a great deal of time with a group of people who would recite the Serenity Prayer ad nauseum.  It bugged me a little then, but I see  For those that don’t know it:

God, grant me the serenety to accept the things I can not change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

I don’t have any trouble trying to change things, it’s accepting things that I can’t change, and knowing which things those are that give me fits sometimes. 

So…what does all that have to do with marathon training ?  My race is in 6 days.  There’s absolutely nothing I can do to be more ready.  Whatever strength, fitness and conditioning my training is going to provide, I’ve already got it.  All I can do now, is not rest enough so I am able to give my best effort, or ( and this is the one that really scares me ) I could get injured and not even be able to run at all.  I have to just sit back, and rest…do nothing….have the wisdom to know that I’m as ready as I’m going to be.  I’m not as ready as I could be…but as ready as I’m going to be.  I could have done more in my training program, and I plan to for my next race.  There are two things I need to have now to have a great run.  Acceptance of things right now, and then patience and restraint on race day.  Those are also things I’m not good at.  Marathoning really requires all the things that I need to work on.  It’s the perfect self help project for me.  I know it’s helped me as a person, I’ll find out next Sunday if it’s helped me as a marathoner

…..no matter what…

…just don’t stop running…

1 comment:

  1. "And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment."

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