So.....I've been experiencing weight creep over the last 3 months. It's been slow enough that it sneaks up on me and I find myself saying pretty regularly now: " hmm...I may have to pay attention to that soon" When I went through my weight loss period I was very focused on it and put a lot of effort into it. It was more than just a matter of getting healthy, it almost became a hobby of sorts. I'd do some pushups and sit ups in the morning, I'd read a little about nutrition during the day, walk up and down a dozen flights of stairs once in the morning, have a flavorless low calorie frozen chunk of something for lunch, do the stairs again, eat dinner but go easy on portions and skip desert, get the kids to bed, head to the gym, struggle through a snackless evening, and then get to bed. It was constantly in the fore front of my conciousness, and it worked. I lost 70 pounds in a about 8 months. Once I got my weight to a level I was content with, I wanted to pay less attention to weight loss and focus on other things in my life. I ran a little less often, had a snack or two when I wanted and an occaisional dessert every now and again. If the weight started to climb, I could knock it back down again pretty easily.
Then I started training for my marathon and was running more miles than I had even during my peak weight loss and I was hungrier than ever. I've always believed that you have to choose between running to lose weight and running to get better at running, and I needed to get into marathon shape, so I didn't really pay attention to the quantity of food I ate. Then I had to back off my running to taper before the race, and then went through some very low mileage weeks after the race to recover and here I am at 10 pounds over where I want to be. I've been here for a while now too. The amount has been small enough that I figured I could just kind of mentally will a few pounds away and get back to where I wanted to be. It's not working. I went from " I may need to pay attention to this" to " I'm going to have to pay attention to this.." to "OK I have to do something about this..." to "why the hell isn't my weight going down ?!?!? "
The answer for me, and quite frankly almost everyone who isn't succeeding at dropping some pounds, is that I'm not doing enough to make it happen. Fat is a sneaky adversary. There are double agents in your psyche that are insidiously sabotaging your efforts. Fat is warm and comfy and friendly. It's nice to have around and is easy to get along with. And its only a few pounds....it's like a cute hungry little puppy at your door. You'd have to have a heart of stone to turn it away. Well...yeah....it doesn't take up much space, it'll be fun, and what's the harm, right ? We'll give it a home for a few days and then find someone to take the puppy...and 10 years later there's a Saint Bernard on your couch and you can't get rid of him.
When I was successful at weight loss, it was an all out effort because I had a lot of weight to lose and it had been bothering me for so long, that I was prepared for the long battle. When it's just a few pounds it's easy to think that a half hearted effort will be all that's needed. When that minimal effort fails, you get used to the weight, and realize it's harder to lose than you thought, and since it's only a few pounds, its not worth the effort of an all out assault on your enemy. THIS IS WRONG AND DANGEROUS..
This is how I got to be 70 pounds overweight in the first place. I didn't wake up 70 pounds overweight one day...it crept up on my slowly. Fat knows your tolerance for acceptance. If your willing to gain 3 pounds per year without doing anything serious about it, Fat will add 2.999999 pounds and then go back into hiding. It won't be real weight, it will be a little holiday weight, and then a half a pound because you sprained your ankle and didn't run....and then a few ounces because you went out with the guys a few too many weekends in a row....and then there was the Superbowl Party...and an old friend came in from out of town...( obscure movie reference: ....There was a terrible floode....locusts !!! It wasn't my fault I swear to God !!!! if you can name the movie you'll win a free lifetime subscription to "Just Don't Stop Running" for you and your family ) Anyways...the point is that it will sneak up on you and a few while you shouldn't get maniacal about a few ounces....don't let it creep up to anything significant.
So...what's my less on in all this ? Despite having to lose only a few pounds, I need to perform an all out assault on it. Go back to the things that I know worked before and they'll work again. It's not rocket science, it's just a matter of doing it, and of course, the basic weight loss equation, ( which I explained here: http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=7773454126196252423#editor/target=post;postID=1575207389994273723
THAT's why it's almost harder to lose a few pounds than a bunch of them. The BWLE ( basic weight loss equation ) states that keeping the pounds has to be more difficult than losing them. When it's only a few pounds that's not necessarily true and the weight loss is harder to make happen.
I am stating here for the entire blogging universe that I am going to lose 10 pounds. Starting today I am doing what it takes to get those pounds gone. Feel free to email me and ask me how it's going, and of course....
...just don't stop running..
thanks for reading.